yoz! i jus blog finish for my biz image tingy.. hahaz.. crap alot.. but stil some were useful.. anyways, been slacking at home duno doin wat oso.. lalalla! hahaha.. play.. watch.. do hsehold chores etc.. n guess waT? i haven eat anyting since morning.. im fasting today!! hahaha.. 1hr more den i can makan le.. muz wait for the sun to set u see? hahaaha.. =B i feel i today very guai.. stay at hm.. help wit e house work.. do wat i shld do.. but only ting im afraid n haven do yet:::::::: STUDY!!! argh!! Im very scare sia!! hahaha..anyways, chenfeng i wanna say tat i jus made a friendly remark.. i got ur clarification le.. so i understood le.. well thats all i wanna say.. =BHmm.. i guess i needa study liaoz!! study!! guys, lets study! no more dota!! bwahaha.. dota n other games now r secondary! study! blah blah blah blah..........hahaha.. oh b4 i forget! ytd was freaking fuN!! hahaha.. Ytd was Aug 26 2005! haha.. weehoon came to my hse.. we planned to study de.. but i was gaming n she wanna zzz.. so we do our own tings.. but wen come to dinnertime!! bwahaha.. b4 tt we bought food to cook le.. as usual we had alot of food.. too much !! hahah.. we had hotdogs in eggs, honey turkey ham, garlic bread, salad, peach tea n last but not least, SELF MADE DUMPLINGS!! bwahhaha.. we made the dumplings ourselves! so fun neh! hahah.. played alot while cooking.. keke! Anni, lets do it again! 0xO" hehe..WELL, i better go prepare my dinner le..That's all folks! =B
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 6:18 PM
WooT! i won my 1st dota match. it was unfair to benteo n his friend though. but stil happy..bwahahaha.. though its like 2v3.. im on e 3.. hehe.. woot.. today was a tiring day too.. but it was enjoyable on the way home.. hehe.. pls lah wh, stop doing tat to me.. ok? very irritating u noe? hehe..
anyways, WOOT again! NO more presentations leh!! yeah!! now i can concentrate on my studies.. i gonna start tml!! tml shall be the day man! e day! BWAHAHA.. i wil touch AAA 1st.. cos its easier.. hehe.. as i said, im silly n cute by nature, so muz work hard..hehehe.. :X I SHALL WORK HARD!! bwahahaha..
good riddance! its 3:10am le! haha.. better go zzz cos tml its a long studying day..no la im jk.. tml needa go take pic of me formal looking.. surely very suave de.. hehe.. jkjk! im ugly la.. yea rite.. anyways, life's been great la.. just great.. im leading a non-happening life. perhaps tats wat i like ba.. quiet, peace, smoothing.. hehe..
hmm.. 1 ting im puzzled today.. im not angry at anyone or wat.. jus feeling weird.. has my decision cos a change in attitude of her n her friends twd me? cos today i was goin off le.. i said "BYE!" to them.. they look at me, or shld i say they jus look blanklhy at me.. den turn their heads back to wat they were doing.. den i was like, "Huh? wat the...?"
hahaha but i cant do anyting.. so im not angry.. i jus happily go BTP wit wh n gang.. haha.. had fun playing css! top scoreLKills 76 Deaths 25. hehe.. if i rmb it correctly.. aft tt went KFC makan.. i whole day makan fastfood. lol! i growing fatter lah.. die! hahaz.. den af t makan wh n i chit chat.. till i bth wanna go hm zzz.. den we left KFC.
i tell u, the bus ride was HELL man!! tt gal, kip on disturbin me.. wanna haf a swt zzz oso cant.. argh! HAHA.. but well it was fun.. u made me laff alot til i really got stomach ache.. hehe.. i nv laff till like tt for a very long time le.. hehe.. had fun on e bus..
Tired le..3.30am! goin zzz.. *knock Off!
Thats all all folks!
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 3:30 AM
Yoz! Today was a tiring day n yet an exciting day. hahaha.. went JP to watch movie.. we went makan 1st.. i ate chicken curry rice! OMG LAH!! so SPICY!! haha.. den, went to watch movie wit wh.. watched Charlie boy.. den we decided to "crash" a movie.. so we sneak in.. lolz! guess wat, they showed the maid!! omg! was scary.. but e ending was sweet.. cos e deceased maid actually wanted to ask help frm e new maid.. haiz..! stupid owners! hehe.. anyways jus a show.
Hmm.. been rather bz wit my own stuff tat i haven been toking to ppl recently.. so long nv tok to cf, ben, liting etc.. hope u guys dun mind wor.. hehe.. not i zhong se qing you.. is i very bz.. dun wu hui.. hehe.. =P
Eh.. tml is IEF n PMKT. tml my last presentation den OVER!! bwahahaha! den i can concentrate n study. bwahha.. i tink im stupid by nature.. so i muz learn n study.. unlike bob, so clever! wahhaha.. tis is wat i called smart by nature.. oways say tyco tyco for AAA but admit it la, u r a genius!! haha.. so ppl like me muz study now.. tis is nature! LolZ! cant slack no longer.. muz find ppl to study liaoz. )_(
anyways, the relationship is nv e same anymore.. sth is wrong but i dunno wat is it.. hmm.. haf not be quarreling but tts e prob.. hehe.. feel very weird not quarreling.. but its not tt i wanna quarrel.. (u tink i some kind of saddist ah! haha) i dun seem to be talking to u much.. duno its tired or wat.. hmm, so i tink finish tis wk den say ba. ^_^
I see lovers n couples like bob n alvin.. really makes me ponder abt love.. wahhaha.. u guys mayb tinking, till now le i stil tinking? wtf rite? but i muz be honest to my heart.. questioning myself.. hmm.. i damn kuku la.. cant be blame! hahaaa.. allalalaalalalalallaa..
Finally, I hope for all the bez to u guys man!
Finals r here! Its now or never le.. y not pia now den celebrate later.. =D
Gambutte!! Jia YOU!! CheerS!!
Thats all folks!
Regards,
faT MinG =X
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 1:33 AM
i decided to put an end to this freaking disaster. im not gd wit words, so if u tink i said anyting too harsh or watsoever please...... i beg ur forgiveness! Please dun take it to heart!
I haf come out wit my decision. I tink i took quite some time to do it.. But anyways, i m utterly sorry abt causing so much trouble, sadness, sorrows and unhappiness in ur lives as it was due to my indecisiveness. I guess I had enuff, n i believe u guys too rite? well, hope u guys wil be ur usual selves again n cont wit a new phrase of life. All da best!
Enuff le! Today is e last n final day i gonna mention abt tis tingy. I wil stop tinking le.. n start feeling.. anyways, jus reach home frm my pool session wit fang hao n wei yuan (BB BOys). Before tat we had our Heritage Walk:An enchanting evening event. I was tired. aft everyting. but stil decided to go wit them cos like long time bo tok liaoz. til now lo. very tired but hair haben dry..
Anyways, i feel like opening myself up to everyone. i wan to be more sociable n make more friends. i feel i can do it. but i m jus too lazy! hehehe.. diaoz rite? kekekek3! ahya! im tired le. dun care. very tired. zZzzZz!
Finally i wanna say, good luck to u guys man. I guess we wil haf some dist le, but stil in my heart, u all haf a place in my heart le. no matter wat, u all r already in my heart le. Honestly speaking, each of u all r precious to me.. (Dun say i very rou ma hor..) u all had make an inpact in my life, no matter good or bad. hehee.. alvin, bob, clare, weehoon, amy, clara, chenfeng, spanairds etc etc.. Well, i wil oways rmb u guys de!! (I tink i too emotional now.. bth myself!) Just feeling fortunate to haf u all to be part of the story of my life. Thank you! =B
A quote: "What comes around, goes around!"
To Weehoon: i read ur blog le.. i tink u r rite.. god is oways in e 1st place! u haf grown. u had grow more understanding and i feel tat u can it de. life does make u stronger dun u tink so? personally i feel so lah.. =B anyways, im glad lah.. n oways happy as u had been in my life for 4 yrs! i wil cherish e relationship n wil nv be wasted. =B
To Chenfeng: Wat i really hope now is tt u can be ur usual self. i miss e cheerful n lame chenfeng who i used to noe. i noe i m very guo fen to say tat as im e root of all ur troubles. but tat is wat i really wan down bottom frm my heart. well, may u haf a fun time wit ur cousins n friends in e future. take care. =B
To clare: happy for u man! finally u had got over tis ordeal! wasnt eazy as i was in tt situation b4. hehe.. jus feeling happy for u. May u n lydia 'white head write old' (direct translation pls!) hehe..
To Bob: I noe somtimes evelyn is bothersome, but tis is how it goes. actually i dun need to say u or wat, cos its oways u who is looking out for my back. well i deeply thank u.
To Alvin: haha.. im sorry if i kip making fun of u.. sorry er-sao! hehe.. but all e crude tings i said i dint mean it. hope u understand. hehe.. u 2 glhf ok?h hehe..
OK! me wanna zzzzzzzzzz le.. BTH!! good nite!
(End of message:3.51am)
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 3:09 AM
Oh life goes on And it's only gonna make me strong It's a fact, once you get on board Say good-bye cause you can't go back Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right Where I'm at, is my life before me And this feelin' that I can go backThis wat i believe. Life goes on, and its only gonna make u strong..
i told her tis, but she tot tis is crap.. well, its up to u lah really.. believe it or not.. hmm.. i quite bothered n fan abt sth.. but e ting is, i dunno wat.. hmm.. stupid huh.. i noe i noe.. =D
Due to my indecisiveness, i caused alot of misery and sadness around me. Thus, I am determined to go with my decisions and live with it, no matter whether its a good or bad de, just do it n live wit it ba. hmm..
weehoon, i noe saying tis wud be redundant. anyways i m sorry to make u so so sad, i dunno alot of tings. ah fuck it lah.. hate myself lah! na bei na bei.. feeling so empty now.. hmm.. V.V"
lonely.. im mr. lonely. i got nobody.. blah blah blah.. ah crap!
I c u c i c me! lallalaaaz...
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 12:22 PM
just cut my hair.. haiz, there goes my pian zi le.. so sad.. tt auntie nv say properly de.. haiz.. now i look weird.. but den, stil as handsome as ever. =P
anyways.. today msg her den stil nv reply.. i tink i dun wanna msg le.. since for once she is so determined, at least tis time. den let her be ba..
i now very lazy to socialise le.. becoming an introvert le.. oso good lah, save me e trouble.. though i wun haf many friends.. hmm.. no more motivation in my life le.. i tink tis blog wil be e only space i left to express myself n my feelings.. i dun care wateva ppl say .. wateva ppl tink.. tis is me n i m like tis..
well.. bob n alvin i tink u guys r doing perfectly fine.. hao hao zhen xi evelyn n eileen respectively.. hehe.. all da best man! n for clare ne, haha.. he damn funny! i really wanna see how clare wil become in e future man.. haha.. wil he stil like her or another her? hee.. ppl say:" Hao si hai zhai hou tou" =P well for rena.. hahaha.. i tink i more handsome den kenny.. hehe.. but his character surely better den me de.. OxO" keke.. i tink they r very compatible.. i waiting to receive red letter frm them leh.. hee.. erm.. stil got where to say.. me now very bored.. hmm..
well.. time to makan le.. i tink it wil take time for me to be my usual self again.. meanwhile, sit back n relac n remember..................
"A friend in need is a friend indeed."
oh 1 ting, enjoy tml! (National Day duhz!)
Well thats all folks! =B
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 6:54 PM
feeling so sianz lately.. feel like being alone but yet oso, feel like being wit some1.. i not sure if i really love her but i jus wanna be wit her.. she said i only wanna her happy side but dun wan her down side etc..
i really duno how to react to that type of situation.. i duno how to show my care n concern for her as she wans me too.. am i a really heartless cold-hearted freek? hmm..
i haf come up wit a decision le.. actually i shld say, i long time ago have decided le.. jus tt i m too hum to admit it.. i realised she is e one tt who can oways cheer me up, motivate me. unselfishly, she oways stay by my side wen i need her.. n u noe wat, i realised she is e gal that i wanna spend all my time wit her.. just her.. nobody else.. but oways there r situations tt make me doubt my feelings and change e direction of my heart. but i dare say.. at tis very moment, that............ i miss her.
im wishing she can reply my msges n pick up my calls. but oways we noe, tt tings wun turn out the way they wud as we thought.. well at least for me.. she nv did. its too late now.. i guess she really mean it tis time. there is nth i can do if she dun even wanna hear frm me n see me.
In the end, it is just another incident of regretfulness (dunno weather i spell correctly anot) in my life. 0_o"
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 12:39 AM
How's life?
haha.. anyways.. im dead!! ahhh!! up til now haven study la.. :X den tml paper 8.30am!! fag sia.. dunno y so early lah!!
shit!! i forget what i wanna say le.. ahh shit.. nvm la.. i go game again.. haha!
gunz ruleZ!!
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 10:51 PM
today is Sunday.
tml is Monday. and on Monday, i got OM.
BUT I hAVEN FREAKING STUDY YET!! wooT!!
Spent the whole day either watching all the dvds i haf or gaming all e different games i haf. ahaha.. OVER!
aNyways, i jus blog for fun! =B
*kEnkEnz is |osT! 5:36 PM